Dismantling Vacuum Cleaners or Unemployment is driving me Crazy

I'll just get right to it. I don't have a job. That doesn't mean that I don't work, quite the contrary, I'm coming off a 5 month gig at an advertising company and over the last few years I have held a few internships, been a Project Manager briefly, temp at various companies and I have a semi-regular freelance gig listening to books (yes, books, it's sounds easier than it is). All that to say that since I threw in the towel with my publicity career and bought a one-way ticket to Barcelona, I haven't had a regular full-time job. It was this time of year, 5 years ago that I packed up my office in midtown, collected my last regular payroll check and flew across the world to be adventurous.

In this time span, I have taught "Business English", gotten a Masters degree, been an intern (twice), worked as an admin, and yeah listening to books. I have had a lot of time to ponder, way too many things. There are days that I am just plain sick of myself. So what do I do all day? Exercise, cook, look for jobs, a career, a boyfriend, jobs, resumes, read books, okay more magazines than books lately and watch movies. Okay, and television which I know you're not supposed to do during the day, when you're looking for work. It was research, I'd never seen Dawson's Creek until 4 years ago and I saw it all in a few months and never thought about it again. (for the record Team Pacey)

But back to my point, I have a lot of time to think. And I've come to the realization that we were not meant to sit in contemplation this much. Neanderthals didn't have this kind of time, they had to figure out fire, and hunt and gather and make sure the cave was secure. I don't know what happened today, but I woke up and look at my room and thought, something has to give. This is something that I have control over, if I could hire me, I would and pay me a lot of money, I'm not there. Getting rid of things I don't need is something that I have control over, and I have seen enough episodes of "Hoarders" know the dangers of holding on to things too long.

Then it was time to vacuum and there was no suction! I went to my local hardware store (my sister thinks it's a front for something since they never have anything that we actually want), to get a new belt for the vacuum cleaner, of course they didn't have it. I didn't have many options, thus I found myself with a screwdriver in my hand and my vacuum cleaner in pieces. Using my best MacGyver skills and super glue, I tried to fashion a different belt to fit, alas that did not work and I am still left with a vacuum cleaner that will not pick-up debris. Frustration. I will be Home Depot bound.

It's only been a week since I was in an office and this is what happens. If I had the materials and cash I would probably be able to remodel this apartment all by myself in a few days. (sigh implied)